Dear T,

I'm at that place again where I'm like, "I'm all better. I don't really need T anymore. I'm good." But I'm scared because I'm acting (in my behaviors anyways) so much better and there is always an equal reaction in the opposite direction.

I'm so scared, T.

I don't know how much longer I can survive in this. I miss you and wish you could just be with me all.the.time. Or just make this go away. Make it stop. I want to tell you that I'm so afraid right now I'm starting to shake inside. That happened during our session once but I didn't tell you. T - I hate that I'm like this. I wish you could understand me because I sure don't understand myself