Dear t, I'm sorry I took up so much of your time today. I'm sorry I'm so needy. I don't understand why you are nice, why everyone in the office is so nice. I'm sorry my knee-jerk reactions are to deny help and push it away. I hope I did not say too much of the wrong thing today. I hope you heard me though. I hope you can see I'm not trying to be so needy and taxing... I'm just so spent. I hope I don't lose it completely before it's in place. I mentioned I wasn't sure how much longer I can keep this up. I'm nearing the end of my reserves. Please forgive me if I fail. I'm faster than the titanic. And I'm good at burning bridges (not intentionally, just another thing I screw up and do)...