I'm not much on keeping a clean house. I have other things to do. I would have to spend at least two hours each day to keep my apartment clean. As it is, it's not something you would see on a reality TV show. It could use some dusting. I could wipe some fingerprints off stuff. It is very cluttered. But that's all.

I would like it to be clean, organized and picture perfect, but I'm not willing to put forth the effort. I'm pretty okay with it but other people are not. They criticize me for it and will not come over to my apartment. Even my mom doesn't want to visit me. People complain of the animal smell. (I have a parrot.) My apartment does have a bit of a pet store smell to it sometimes, but how is that offensive? And these people call themselves animal lovers!

Okay, so the messy housekeeping is probably a symptom of my depression. But why do people care so much about that? How would they feel if I told them to lose weight or wear makeup because their appearance was offensive to me?

I don't date because I don't want to expose myself to criticism about my housekeeping skills. That and I have no libido, so what's the point?

Sigh. It's a struggle just to take a shower sometimes.