Wondering why, when people ask "How are things, how's the family?" My reply is "Everything is fine".

Things are not fine--

Two nights ago my 17 year old son was robbed at gunpoint(at a gas station-they took his birthday money he'd just gotten that day )--which left me spiraling into the world of "numbness" as my memories of being 8 years old and held at gunpoint for several hours, come back to me.
Have to go to court next week with son as he is being questioned about a carjacking that took place after the criminals bashed in my son's car window(trying to steal my son's car but they were scared away)-- what if those criminals are there at the court house and see my son-- will they want to go after him later?
This son has ADD and his grades have been going down, down, down-- he's at a D average now. He was coping so well two years ago-- it seems to be gone ........court next week and now this robbery.....I don't know what to do. Then there's also the alcoholism...... hubby won't accept-- says it's not a problem--as he staggers through the house.

And yet, people(mainly family members) ask and I tell them "Everything is fine".--- maybe PTSD taught me, numbness is best-- it's the way to cope. But-- is it?? I just don't know.

whew-- this is hard.... not usually one to publically vent. not that there's a thing wrong with it-- just hard for me to do-- guess I'm pondering- "outloud", my old ways of coping.