I was never abused, but I always put everyone else's feelings above my own. It seems like the focus of my life has been avoiding or anticipating negative feelings. Around age 12 was when I fell apart completely and never really recovered. It was in a sense traumatic to me. Part of my problem is that I have almost no resilience to negative thoughts and experiences, but like many people on here, I can do that chameleon thing where no one can see anything wrong with you (which in turn covers it up and people either don't understand what is wrong with you, or they even try to marginalize what you're going through).

I brought it up today with my NP (nurse practitioner that prescribes meds). He didn't really have an opinion but he referred me for therapy and a clinical evaluation to sort out my diagnosis and decide how to approach treatment.