Hello, I am wondering if anybody can help me or offer any advice. This is kind of a long story but I need help.

I've had depression since childhood as early as 5 years old (male), never saw a counselor for it just kept brushing it off. So last year in mid-October I started seeing an individual therapist. I've told him my life story, and we've talked about lots of things, but nothing seems to help me with my depression. So I started taking meds and I've been on lots of them now since January of this year. I've felt no positives from any of the meds I've taken at all, but some side effects. I swear I feel absolutely the same mentally as I did without any meds. Can I possibly be unable to be affected by psych meds? I don't understand.

I've done so many things to improve my health. I've gotten a physical done with an internal medicine doctor to make sure that nothing physical was contributing to my depression. I have low Vitamin D but I really don't think that is doing much on my depression. Besides taking vitamin supplements I've tried other supplements such as St. John's Wort (which I've heard is terrible for depression but idk) and SAMe. I've gone to a partial hospitalization program that was every day for 6 hours. From there they decided I had to go in-patient because I kept saying my depression was a 10 on a scale of 1 to 10. Going in-patient really didn't help me and I didn't want to be there at all. So I got out not too long ago and right now I'm in an intensive out-patient program (group therapy). I just flat out told the therapist in there that I really don't see this group helping me at all. She spends extra time at the end of every group with me to try to help me but it doesn't help. I hate my life so much. I can't go on like this much longer. What else do I have to do? ECT? I've thought about it. But it seems like a last resort thing? I feel so hopeless.