Hi all,

I don't have an anxiety disorder as such, I have bipolar disorder -- but I hope nobody minds me posting here as it's anxiety related.

In 2009, I had a relationship end on me pretty harshly. The woman (who had professed to love me deeply) ignored me for six weeks very suddenly. She then changed her relationship status, and started posting right that night on Facebook about sleeping with someone and her crush on someone else. Ouch. Round about that time, I had lot of anxiety.

I bounced back fairly quickly though and started seeing my recent ex. We dated for 2.5 years. They were pretty disastrous, on reflection, and the last 1.5 years were long distance. There were a few attempted breakups on both sides but my recent ex knew about how the ex described above treated me, and said she would never do that.

Except recently, she did. Exactly the same! She faded out of my life during a 2.5 month period, at a time my bipolar was bad depression wise and I really needed her, and last week we finally had the breakup talk... prompted by me because I couldn't stand it any more.

I don't know whether it was because it was a direct reminder of a very anxious time in my life or whether it was because another woman had treated me not the greatest in a way she promised not to, but during those 2.5 months and since I have been waking up every morning with the most awful anxiety.

I've lost 10lbs in that time period despite bipolar meds and I'll retch every morning and have a racing heart. I sometimes have to lie there for 1-2 hours calming myself down. Anxiety medication helps somewhat but only a little. I thought it would go away after the breakup but it hasn't.

I'm not due to see my doctor for another 2 weeks where I'll seek further advice on this so I'm wondering if anybody could please give me any tips for controlling this in the meantime? Is my body stuck in fight or flight mode? If so, how do I get it out of it? I would be ever so grateful for any help.

Edited to say: I should also mention that during the breakup talk, I asked my ex to please not mention if in the future she had something with somebody else, as I didn't want to know. She said "I'm keeping my mouth shut", which sounded a bit too present tense like she already is as opposed to "I'll keep my mouth shut when I do", but maybe I'm reading too much into that. This hasn't helped with the anxiety at all.