I am trusting you all with this, arent I. I hadn't thought of it that way-- helps me to feel less alone, thank you Tunia.
.. and no one has gotten mad at me here (so far) or told me to --"just deal with it". (phew)

"Are you going to court alone with son?"...... well my husband is going to meet us there, but that's it.

Coincidentally, I did have a T. session yesterday.... but it didn't go very well. Seems I was evasive and found myself bringing up subjects out of nowhere-- just like a magician. ... things that had very little/or nothing to do with the current situations..... T. pointed that out towards the end of the session-- I didn't realize I was doing that.
He suggested I should have more frequent sessions-- not sure about that idea though.....

Tunia, Thanks for your support-- I really appreciate it.