I went to the doctor tuesday. Had a new doc. She was nice. Forgetful. She lost if scrip pad then her stethoscope. We got along well. But she had to look at my throat. This is where I got so very triggered. I can't have ANYONE or ANYTHING near my throat, period!!! She tired to look in my mouth, but everything she tired I gagged. Then she had to put her hands on my neck. Took everything in me to stay present and not jump up and kick and punch her. Have to go to another doctor tuesday for my enlarged thyroid. So freaking scared.

Plus they said my bl**dwork came back normal YET again. I know somethings wrong. My thyroid is enlarged and I've gain 50lbs over the last 3 years, 15lbs since may. I used to have to try to gain any weight, now I eat air and gain 15lbs. Just tired and frustrated.