Phew.... lots of things have been happening!

Pdoc got me soooooooooo upset 2 Fridays ago for refusing to see me after being late for 10 minutes. I was so livid that I finally was able to relax and got rid of a lot of pent up feelings. It has been close to 2 weeks and have not fallen into depression.

Told doc about all this and he said I had a cathartic event. Apparently... I needed to be pissed off to break the depression.

He told me that I need to work on addressing and expressing my anger and frustration because I've been turning anger inward - which in turn caused my depression. It is the oldest condition in the book. Gosh... I have never realized this.

The whole psychiatric experience has been very interesting and probably would never go through that again. However, if I hadn't I'd probably still be very depressed.

What an irony!