This is my first post on this site and I am so thankful for a place to open up and feel safe. Thank you all for being here! This morning I said goodbye to my T. It was emotionally raw and intense but at the same time it was a healing conversation. He kept tearing up in the session and I just cried alot. I was not used to seeing him tear up. I knew last week that I would be saying goodbye to him in today's session, so I began grieving for him. By the time this morning's appointment got here it wasn't quite as intense as it would have been. Since last week I have been allowing myself to cry and feel emotions and the rawness of the pain and the reality.

I wrote him a goodbye letter and decided to read it to him in our last session. I wasn't sure I could make it through. But I did! It was very personal and I thanked him for so much and for helping me to change. I also thanked him for making a difference in my life. I looked up a couple of times and saw that he was tearing up. At the end when I finished the letter and handed it to him his eyes were totally red and teary. That was a really strange but beautiful experience.

I wanted to hug him but we didn't. My heart is so full and thankful for him. At the same time I will miss him too.

Just wanted to reach out to others on this site. I have found that the more I surround myself with people and ask for support and not isolate that I feel healthy and can make it through this grieving process one more moment.

I have read a couple of other posts on this site and I was really encouraged by the positive support and encouragement. I am hoping to feel the same support here and be a support to others as well.

Thanks for reading this.