Hi LHMT,

I understand the pain of grieving; am currently going through a raw grieving process. I had a visual of what grief looks like for me. I'd like to share it with you. Maybe it will help. I liken grieving/grief to childbirth and labor. It comes and goes and sometimes the pain is unexpected. But at the end the outcome is something so healing and beautiful. I have to remember that "this too shall pass" and life will go on. The more I can continue dealing and accepting reality, not the fantasy I wish I could have, that I can move forward and not be stuck in this pain. It sounds like it is hard for you because you had your mind set on her death and maybe that was closure for you. But she is still alive. I kinda feel the same as the person I am grieving for is still alive as well. My mind jumps way far ahead to wondering what it will be like living life without ever seeing that person again. But someone said "Don't borrow trouble." I guess that means stay in the moment.

I hope that your situation resolves. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.