I'm sorry things are getting so bad for you. It sounds like you are at your whits end and can't cope with what is going on. Try to get as much support as you can so you don't feel so alone. Is there any family, friends or your husband that you feel safe talking to them about what is going on?

Try not to worry about the assessment so much. It is just part of the doctors understanding what is going on and how things are with you. It is scary, but it is for a good cause and to help you. It is hard to talk about stuff from the past, but talking and dealing with it is a good way to heal from personal tragedies. It isn't to make you feel bad or relive those experience, but to find some inner peace and accept them as part of your past.