Maybe I'm the ultimate exception to lifes rules, (translation- freak ) But it honestly irritates the sheet out of me when people preach all the doom and gloom about a med-free life, it irritates me when folks assume med-free is impossible, bipolar definitly gets worse or med-free's a bad idea just because it didn't work for them.

Its like fricken hypocrisy runs rampant and nobody even notices!

We dont want to be boxed in and stigmatized by dr's or "normals", but we do it to our own We don't want to hear how according to the dsm our lives will suck forever and we are substandard humans, but we preach it to eachother anyway! Like wtfaaaaah???

Spread the love people, spread the message of hope FFS!

Disclaimer, I'm not advocating for anyone to walk my path, guess I'm just not sick of repeating myself yet. Getting very close though.
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I quit my meds in the midst of huge emotional turmoil, but me being the freak I am, 90% of my impulsive decisions turn out GREAT and I believe this phenomenon to be due to the fact that my wishes are clear, no ifs or buts, and I commit to decisions I believe are good for me.

Anyway, yes it (symptoms) got worse before it got better, but it did get better.

How many people who say "I got worse when I quit my meds" waited to see if they improved? How long did it take before they made an appt with pdoc and decided that quitting was thee worst mistake?


A week? 2? A month? I'm not asking anybody to respond, I'm just trying to evoke some thought on this particular subject, because really what kind of stats are we looking at to preach this as the gospel truth when we all know without a shadow of a doubt that with bp, individuality is a factor and bp is infact a spectrum disorder?...

Its downright impossible to get clear data when 2 such contradicting factors are present. So to make such broad statements is grossly inaccurate and to use them to discourage people from finding their own path to wellness is plain negligent, no matter how much you care.

Well I can only speak for myself and I was in an Ultradian Torture Chamber for 3 months after I quit and that's not counting the 2 + weeks of withdrawls...

Maybe I seem daft for putting myself through that, but I just knew it had to get better, and it was worth it. Because after I emerged from the torture chamber, I went into a nice peaceful remission for quite a few months. And even when my mood cycles started up again, they were less frequent than when medicated.

While I was detoxing from meds and my brain was scrambled trying to return to its natural state, I did wonder if I had made a mistake, but I remembered that I had been living bipolar for atleast 10yrs before a pdoc pointed it out and that FOR ME, there is absolutely no reason why I could not do that again.

Afterall I now had knowledge and new coping skills, so surely I must be able to return to a medfree life.

The meds helped me when I had a double death trauma to deal with, I won't lie, but minus trauma they don't have a place in my life.

It been nearly 2years now and I'm still happy with my choice.

I'm not scared of the future either because I don't see it as a given that bp gets worse with time, its not a degenerative disease, or a spreading cancer, so to me it simply just doesn't compute and sounds like a huge ole ASSumption.

Obviously if you are refusing to take care of yourself your quality of life will decrease rapidly, that goes without saying for EVERYONE! I think with bp, we just manifest and display that neglectful results in so much bigger ways.

Is my brain deteriorating? I doubt it, but on the other hand, I'm getting older, experienced, wiser. So does that not mean it should be becoming easier or atleast simpler to manage my bp?

Instead we get more complex cocktails to chug down because we build up a med tolerance, which I'm pretty sure gets mistaken for kindling more than anyone would like to admit.

This (wiser, simpler comment) is of course said assuming there aren't other factors magnifying the bp symptoms, like physical ailments, life circumstances and the like...

Bipolar isn't new, if psychiatry (which is new) is to be believed then it is somewhat genetic (I'm a freak there too or maybe adopted! ) and because humans aren't new, we have been dealing with bp for eons and have survived, give us some credit already dammit!

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Anyway, I've ranted enough for tonight, I guess I just get a lil bit pissed when people make statements with such "finality", when I'm right here "in the room", physically proving them incorrect. Or maybe I'm not really here Or maybeee I'm invisible heehee the mischief I can think of....

Rant over peeps, or like Mr Grey would say, "Laters babe"