Thanks for all your support and concerns, I am not belittiling my ilness and I know I have to be careful, Which is why I only been planning it for six months and been hesitent to go through with it, but seeing how im off work for a little while it may be the best time to start. I tried just lowering my lithium down to 600 mgs and my Pdoc just told me that amount is not giving me any benefit, I like how he just knows whats working for me and what isnt and I apparently dont have much of a clue. I will certainly be talking to my Pdoc about this and I know hes not going to like my idea. But its not fair to me or him pertending I want to be treated with meds long term. I wanted to get my head above water and now that I have done that I would would like to move away from meds and continue to keep my head above water and try things like therapy, things my Pdoc never refereed me to, doesnt even know how, Just strictly medication and no connections to other things like therapy.

Maybe I cant do it with out medication but Im sure going to try my best, other then just wondering if I can or cant do it with out medication forever.