And I know I wouldnt be med free using herbs and such. I would like to do it without that as well, but something about taking pills, blows my ego and it shouldnt, its not my fault. but it makes me question who I am and gives me a reminder of my instability in the past and why im on them, and makes me feel like, i better take these or else... I dont know its an insecurity for sure. but not the only reason i want to stop them