Here are reason why I dont give a damn anymore.

I go to the Er about a possible drug reaction to a new psych med ( Saphris). Smugbastard ER doctor seems more concerned that I was there over 3 years ago asking to be admitted to Psych ward because of being suicidal. WTF ? The Nurse and her flunky "new nurse" can't get a GD EKG so hey lets leave the patient ( me) lying there naked, Yeah don't worry about the fact that I have Huge body issues and this process is killing me.

Smugbastard demands a drug test .. why ??? Because I am Bipolar and god only knows what the F I am taking ( his words)

Sure new nurse go ahead and dig around in my arm to insert an IV , keep digging because I have 3 veins that a blind service dog could find. No really go for the vein that touch my bones, you F'in idiot.

Smugbastard comes back and decided in all his epic glory that I am having Asthma problems....

Asthma ? really? I have had asthma for 20 years Of course It's asthma even though its NOT f'in Asthma , why because I know it isn't.

Meanwhile my Husband is sitting there looking nervous, why ? hell if i know ! maybe it's because obviously I am getting a tad pissy being used as a f'in dummy. Does he speak up for me ? Nope

Oh and the best part ... Smugbastard decided to "let me " have Ativan .. So I will calm down !!!! WTF ! I said are you GD kidding me I have stronger meds to take at home and I don't get treated like s!hit to take it.

Yes I am furious Yes I am pissed Yes I hate the whole damn world.

In fact I have a bottle of Peach Schnapps with my name on. With any hope I will drink so much I wind up back in that smug bastards ER and vomit all over his 800.00 tie .