Dear InfiniteSadness: I know this feeling too well, sometimes it just feels as if there is nothing more to say, and speaking at all is too much of an effort. I can still walk into some place and chit chat with a smile for a few moments, I try to be friendly to make others at ease, but I cannot stay. And, sometimes even the good things are difficult when you just can't feel what you "should"...it is hard to remember that there actually have been good times, those moments in time that are special, and the darkness, all the sad, bad, thoughts, memories just flood and won't shut up in there. But you've got to hang in there, (and here I am thinking that I haven't read enough of your posts to be saying anything to you...it could all ring false)------While you live, things will change---and there will be good times to come. Hang in there. You are worth it.