(((((( Christina )))))))

I'm sorry that you are feeling bad. Wish I could help you to feel better somehow. Those feelings would be a good place to start with addressing your feelings. I seem to remember something about you being in between therapists, right? Did you decide to go to one? This is the kind of thing to take to therapy and work on - the feelings you are experiencing as well as all of the ways that you try to cope with them and what you need to learn that would be more effective. You could also check out the self-help forum and e-book here and see if that helps you too.

When I posted above that my theory is that it's all the same stuff - I hope that it didn't sound like minimizing either your difficulties or the progress that you have made. You have come a long way. It's just that whatever symptoms you still have mean that something is still there. I feel that any symptoms are really ways that we try to deal with emotions and stuff that we don't know how to address in more effective ways. This applies whether it's SI, full-blown eating disorder symptoms, substance abuse, sexual addiction, gambling, or any number of possibilities and from mild to severe.

TC and try not to be too hard on yourself.

Love,
Rap