to be honest, i knew my condition but my T and pdoc didn't say anything about it. it was until when i saw them writing my diagnosis on the hospital case files as MDD. even so, when i asked my T (my pdoc and T are colleagues so they work hand in hand) about my diagnosis she said this...

"well we don't really have a diagnosis.. we just put it because the hospital wants one. but on consensus, we agree that you are depressed."

till today i'm not sure whether it's MDD or dysthymia.. but i guess hearing that is enough.