I lower blinds everywhere I go, including at school and in my doctors' offices. In guests house, I fidget because it's obviously rude to get up and start adjusting people's blinds. It stems from the belief people are watching me. The only time I don't lower a blind is when I am in my room late at night, because if I lower it whoever is outside will see movement and break into the house to kill me. At the same time, I sometimes keep it open to look out and wait for the person(s) who want to kill me. If I don't lower my blinds in my room, I am up all night either way looking out and waiting.
When I am nervous, I do a bit of counting, but nothing severe. I count music counts, so 1,2,3,4 (4/4 time) and it has to be that music count. I only do it when I am EXTREMELY nervous though. I usually do the hand movements on my leg. I think the beats of music just calm me down though.
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