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POST CONTAINS - MY - EXPERIECES WITH MY TUNNEL AREA AND ACHIEVING CO CONSCIOUSNESS.
This floaty feeling is what - I - have been told by many professionals in the field of DID is the beginning of dissociating.
Its what - I - call - MY - tunnel area and - MY - area of co consciousness (when memories are replaying in - MY - head and - I - am aware of both the floaty feeling/memories and of what is going on physically around me)
MY present therapist LL and - I - use relaxation visualizations other wise known as hypnotic techniques) as a part of MY therapy program by doing them during therapy sessions and recording them and - I - practice at home by using the recordings at night we also use relaxation visualizations of bringing - ME - into - MY - tunnel - co consciousness area of floaty feelings for - MY - memory recall work for example when we worked with the sand tray -
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- I - have also taken anger management classes, parenting classes and depression anxiety management classes where the therapists taught those in the class how to achieve this floaty relaxed hypnotic feeling.
- I - think its cool that you can pull yourself out of that floaty tunnel. - I - had to work with - MY - past therapist SKR for close to a year and practice doing it at home too in order to be able to do that. Now - I - can do that some of the time.
When - I - am with LL she has asked - ME - not to pull myself out of that floaty relaxed area when we are doing relaxation visualizations together and to just "follow" because she wants - ME - to have the full benefit of achieving that relaxed state of mind while at the same time remaining aware of her voice (co conscious). When - I - am with LL and we are just talking sometimes - I - pull myself out of the tunnel and sometimes - I - don't try for example yesterday - I - had a rough morning getting to her office on only 4 hours of sleep and then - MY - bike broke along the way (gear shifter and chain ) so by the time - I - got to her office - I - was tired. - I - let her know what happened then opened - MY - soda and told LL how - I - was doing physically and depression wise and then sat back and relaxed into - MY - tunnel and la la land for a little rest. When - I - came back to awareness LL let - ME - know "who" she had been talking to and showed - ME - a picture - I - had drawn while - I - was off resting. - I - was just too tired yesterday to even try pulling out of - MY - tunnel. Other times with LL when just talking - I - do start slipping into - MY - tunnel and pull myself right back out. When - I - am with my friends and out in public -I - continue to use my grounding techniques so that - I - don't dissociate away from my problems and - MY - friends. at home - I - am training myself to use my floaty tunnel for relaxation needs not for running away from - MY - problems and triggers.