Just to note.. I did not know I had a bad childhood. It wasn't until the T started digging that some of it surfaced. I still don't know all the details.. I sometimes wish that I had learned about this when I was younger. Maybe my life would not have been so devastating as an adult. Including relationships, etc.....

I am so glad you are are working on your childhood issues. It really is best to do this. And not run from it. Facing these issues will not only make you stronger, but will help you have a better future. Of course a good T is important too. Please don't misunderstand this.. k.. I kind of envy you for your determination to face your childhood. Maybe it isn't envy, maybe it is the strength I see, that nothing is going to hold you back this time. I am so proud of you for this...

Oh to add, it isn't that I am running from my past. Just I don't know how to do it and I don't have memories in detail of anything specific.. Just bits and pieces. ok.. maybe I am running.. Maybe I am afraid. I just don't know how to deal with it all. Let alone find "new info" that could be devastating Sure did burst my bubble remembering the "basement" and woods. I again only have bits and pieces. Anyway, not sure if I can deal with more..

Safe huggggs