I am married and my husband is my only friend. I have acquaintance's. but they are not people that I would hang out with. Not because I do not like them, but because I do not trust people. I do not trust my self. I open my mouth and then regret every word. I do not know how to socialize with others. Even on line I have people I know a little, but I do not know anyone on a real true personal level.

I never had many friends growing up. I had one in grade school, but we did not really do a lot together. I had one in Junior High and High School. I have had none except those from childhood in my adult life. I have not done anything with them since I was in my early 20's before I had my first full-blown SZ Episode. However I have been in contact with them through email and writing over the years periodically.

I just find it very difficult to get close to people. And very few of my acquaintance's know anything about my illness. I simply do not share. Its always open mouth insert foot. Or get stabbed in the back.