I wish i could talk with you today. I will just wait till my appt tomorrow. I feel like you hate me and i really want to stop going to you. But I promised I'd give it more time and i always keep my word. I don't understand therapy or how it works. I feel really confused these days and like nobody understands me. I spend most of the time trying to find a reason not to kill myself and usually i just come up with one. My girls. I feel really sad.