The times and circumstances have got you down. I know that pain. It's hard for me to talk and make friends too. God took away my ability to speak well when I went through psychosis. I've dealt with depression and its not fun. For me I just wanted to curl up in a ball and watch TV. I want to start over too and not be bogged down with mental problems.

Life goes on, people move on. Things can't stay bad forever, it would disrupt the circle of everything. What has been helping me recently is listening to music (angry rock music).

I've been alone as far as relationships have been going. It's hard for me to form a friendship when I am quiet and don't have much to say. I hope things get better for you and that you find happiness in what you do. Good luck