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disruption of early attachments are contributing to my mood fluctuations
This is a very well-known phenomenon. There are lots of good researchers and mental health professionals/theororists who write about this. There's currently a post about attachment disorders on the Other Mental Health forum with a couple of attachments to articles, which you could check out.
It's actually precisely the types of mood fluctuations as a result of attachment issues that occur as reactions to interpersonal relationships. So it sounds like your psychiatrist was referring to this. Disruptions in early attachments lead to reacting in certain ways to relationships, especially close ones, as someone mentioned above.
It seems you are very interested in re-visiting your diagnosis; I would get re-evaluated by a psychiatrist. I tend to think that our therapists -if we've been seeing them over a good period of time- know us best, but officially, only psychiatrists can make diagnoses (I think??). If you get a good one, they will not diagnose you right away, but take a history, talk to you, and then over time get to know you and eventually make a diagnosis (I say this, because I tend to be suspicious of psychiatrists who made definitive diagnoses off the bat [perhaps a provisional one makes more sense to me]; I think it takes time to get to the know the patient to the extent necessary to make a definitive diagnosis. Since your therapist knows you, the psychiatrist could consult him/her for help with the diagnosis, or you could start fresh.
I'd caution you on one point though (and I really do mean this to be helpful): if someone is hoping for/looking for a certain diagnosis (which it seems you are in terms of bipolar), there can be a tendency (unintentionally, on an unconscious level) to limit what is shared to the symptoms and experiences that point to that diagnosis, leaving out things that are also experienced, but that might point to a different diagnosis. The important thing to keep in mind is to get the treatment appropriate to what is going on with you, and once you start on bipolar meds, it can be hard to get off of that merry-go-round. A bipolar diagnosis can also lead some people to believe they do not need therapy anymore, as everything then gets attributed to the illness/the brain, but I personally think therapy is so very important.
Again, at the end of the day, the important thing is that you get the treatment you need. It sounds to me that maybe you're at an impasse in therapy? Have you talked to your therapist about lack of improvement in certain areas and what can be done about it? Have you talked to her about your thoughts about bipolar? I'd encourage you to delve into all of this with her/him. Or if you think she's taken you as far as she can, maybe you could look into another therapist and/or group therapy like DBT? (which is used to treat both BPD and BP). Best of luck!
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