Yeah they bullied me and I was defenseless and that gets me mad because they had sidekicks to be telling them that they were cool and that they were worthy and I wasn't. Even my friends just stood there and did nothing. See why that upsets me? Everyone has somebody, I've got none. I dread the rest of my life being alone. I have feelings for men and I don't want that. You see, it's like I'm a train wreck. First, I go from happy and then to sad and then that.

One girl told me that if God gave a **** about you, you would not be like htis. Yeah, that girl had plenty of friends. I didn't really have any. You see, I feel like she was more blessed than I. sometimes when things don't go the way I expect it, I just become disappointed and I wonder why do I have to be suffering? I did nothing wrong. Even if I did, why do I have to suffer? others commit crimes and they still have someone to like them? If I did any of those things or chose a different path, others wouldn't care. they would be like,"Oh."