To be very honest with you, i want some of the people who have hurt me, even if they are teenagers, to be dead today and I want revenge if I can get it. I want them to suffer just as much as I did, they all have friends now, they don't suffer the consequences of bullying me, God praises them, and everything. I want them to know that all those years I have cried many times and many nights. I had to see a therapist at one point. She told me that if I did not have any friends now I would have a hard time later in life. That statement always distressed me and for years I have struggled to keep longlasting friendships. They come and go. like the one when i first met when I moved to a new city. I thought people would be friendlier. Turns out everywhere you go you meet jerks. I'm never the one that people praises or cheers for. Instead, I'm the one that makes people fall silent when they hear my name.