I am always paranoid, like if things go wrong i will blame it on someone else. I will say that someone else is cursing me out there. It had to be, i would tell myself, because if it isn't then why can't I get these memories out of my head. If this is not the case, then it's me, or it could be you reap what you sow. All those years I've sown hatred, I'm now getting hatred back. I don't think I really understand teh concept very well, but what goes around, comes around. Some don't experience the consequences right away but I do.