Ok. Youve said you're different. Thats not a bad thing. Some people need to separate themselves from the pack for various reasons. People call us loners. I bet half of PC are loners. Are we all bad? NO way. There are some of the greatest people on Earth here. I think its healthy for a person to choose solitude on occasion.

It hurts when its thrust on us but it builds strength in the independence of character. It hurts like heck and it beats a lot of people.

You could be a pack of one to yourself but that gets lonely. There are others like you but you'll have to find them. I know you're skeptical about spiritual things but I believe God always knows what we need. It may not be given in the time we think it should but God knows and if we're watchful, we'll see where we need to go next. Sometimes its alone, sometimes its with others.