I've realized that I'm scared of my own mind. I don't know why, and I can't accurately explain it. But I am.

I have no idea how I'm doing right now. I wish I cold say it was good, but I don't think it is. But it's still not bad, either, so that's okay.

I need motivation. I'm trying to motivate myself. I'll be in school this fall and I want to believe that's a good thing. But even though I pretend for everyone that I'm excited, deep down I figure I'm probably the best freaking actor they know.