It's been a strange couple weeks. Two weeks ago after my appointment I was thinking I wasn't sure I wanted to go back to this counselor. I had been feeling worse after our visits and it didn't seem like a good thing. I talked to my sister in law about it and she felt like it was because we were getting somewhere I didn't want to get to.

So I gave it one more chance. I actually had sent him an email with a journal entry with some deep stuff in it and when I went in this week we had a really good session. I cried most of the time and shared some of the deepest stuff with him.

On our way out I caught a look in his eyes and thought. . .wow he has pretty eyes. That freaked me out too I was like. . .dang do I have some sort of weird crush on my counselor? It came to me this morning that he has the same eyes as my Dad does. (and I adored my Dad)

So that was good I didn't want to have to switch counselors.

But here's the thing. . . he's going on vacation next week and I'm feeling all weird about it. I really want to go see him and pick up where we left off. I'm worried that if I miss a week I may lose my "place" on what we were working on.

I also email him with questions once in awhile if I get confused about something I'm thinking about and he's good about replying but he let me know he won't be on email next week.

My husband is also going out of town over the weekend so maybe that's why it's harder. I haven't been away from hubby in 4 years.

OK so the question is: is it weird that I'm feeling a little funny about having to miss an appointment? Does it show a good thing that I'm feeling attached or is it a sign of a problem?

Thanks,