Hey Blue ,

Thanks, I am pretty use to the ignorance of this small towns Doctors. The closest er besides that one is an hour away. The few times I have gone inpatient for my Bipolar its over 90 mins away and that is missing rush hour.

Yes I chose to live in the middle of no where. We were able to sell our place in florida with a huge mortgage and buy our place outright here, no mortgage. So ..... That part is wonderful and people here are generally very nice. Where I go for my Pdoc and T .. well they are amazing.

I think I am just tired of life and the complications of it all. I can't remember the last time I was pain free ...I know it's over 4 years ago ! ! There is no relief for me, I just have to suck it up and deal with it and the constant sucking up and dealing with it ... is getting very old and pointless.