My mother had suspected that I was bipolar since I was 18 (26 now.) But once I read up on it I think that the manic/depressive stages have gone on since I was younger then that. Anyway I tried to explain all of this to the lady who prescribes the pills. She decides since I don't get alot of sleep normally even when I'm not up or down (I've had night terrors since I was a kid and have PTSD as well) that it just doesn't seem like I have any normal modes. I had explained that I don't go manic 24/7 or depressed 24/7. The lady is overall just an idiot. Anyway after 3 hours of all this back and forth (she is wanting to treat me for head trauma even though I've never had a significant blow to the head.) She puts me on Carbamazepine er. This is my 2nd day on it. Only problem is I can't sleep. I normally go to sleep at 11-12 I've been up until around 4-5 but tonight I can't sleep. Way too many things on my mind and I want to accomplish too many things. But yeah these pills I'm worried about becoming a zombie. I remember my dad battling with pills and I remember how bad he would get. I don't want to go into full flip out, zombiefied, or severe depression. I've been battling deciding to take them or just stop and start flushing them so there's no evidence (Ilive alone) and I don't have to be foggy or.anything else. Plus I really dint like that lady so I don't want to do what she says. But I'm not in a position to switch doctors or anything right now. I guess what I'm asking is does anyone have any advice for the pills, what I should do if I end up going to extremes on these pills, and how I can get through to this lady if I have any problems brcause she DOES NOT LISTEN. Lol pretty bad when your mother is explaining the way you are and you're explaining things and the lady just assumes that what you're saying happens all the time.