I know many of us feel at the end of session that we are "just getting somewhere" when we have to leave. I am having soo much stuff of all different shapes, sizes and colors coming up from the past at the moment that every single session is another hour when crap doesn't get resolved. Not that I think problems of this sort can easily be resolved (esp in an hour a week!) but often when I leave sessions I feel torn in two. It's like I am both super close to finding the "key" to issues and super close to my T ... and then suddenly thrown out into the cold dark world to manage for another week.

I write a lot, draw, practice mindfulness, and have a great support network, but sometimes I feel like the whole week is spent in limbo, waiting to get back to T's office and go on with Chapter X of the story. But of course there are so many "stories" coming out of my head right now that each time I go back I have to work out which story wants to be heard most. It's usually the one that's been at me all week. I know eventually I'll get better at coping by myself (and I think I'm doing pretty good right now generally) but right now I need T's help and I need to keep myself together between seeing her.

Anyway, rambling, but - what do you do to manage during the week if your brain is really busy processing trauma, CSA etc? Do you write or draw? Do you have other outlets? How do you deal with a whole bunch of things coming up all at once? Sometimes I find myself "talking" to T in my head. It sounds weird but it helps. But I do it all week, then get my hour, get through approximately 5% of it, then back to another week of self-reflection and talking to my imaginary T friend ... argh!