I can very much relate to this post. The hard part is while I am usually bursting at the seams to share and talk and process between sessions, when I actually walk in there I shut down and the walls go up. Some days it feels like I need an am/pm session just to work through everything that comes up. I honestly don't know how people can make big life-altering or sustainable change in the once a week therapy (I mean, people do, I just want in on their secret).

For me it feels like I can try everything under the sun: writing, exercise, gardening, etc...but those feelings (esp. the trauma work) are always a shadow on everything I am doing.