well, a few things.....

It's odd and probably long if i explained it-- but today with reveiw of the past, it is ok to think on it- but realize the good things I have today-- And heck- I lived through it all and made it here.
I am not with an abusive s/o, he actually cares, and has tried to work with me on things- no he is not perfect but I do love him
I am not living in fear these days with "what if they find me" (at least not today, i do have some days i don't do well with this but it's progress).

Despite the statics with me "being the baby" I never went back to ask for anything when i was not sure what to do- some how I had that with in myself, some where that foundation was formed- I don't know how but it was; and I stood on my own two feet.
Course the dynamics of my family are not of the norm of what statistics talk about. (i am 9-10 years from the oldest, and then 5.5 from the one of the next youngest)...

Realizing these small, but yet not so small things- have made me feel good. Yes today I thought on my past, i got a little sad- but today I am not stuck- which is good. I have battled through a lot of my own things, and things around me.

It will be ok