Have you ever discussed your childhood with a psychiatrist, InfiniteSadness? Often,
these problems go way back to the days when we were too little to understand that
the criticism we got seemed to be an attack on our little person inside to us. Where
that came from in your childhood is important for you to know so that you can work
through it and learn that it just wasn't so.

My guess is that you have done that and that you are still walking through the time
period in which those things happened. You need to learn to step outside that and
live your life as a mature and loving person, because deep down, your little child inside
knows that you are good and worthy. You need to let that precious little one out to
breathe easily and happily.

It's a conscience that's too strong in some of us and guilt that was built into our
systems when we were just too young to be able to absorb it except to think that
we were unworthy. All that is just not true.

Please talk about issues inside with your psychiatrist and get those things out. The
things that you are least willing to talk about are the things most needed to be discussed in the privacy of a psychiatrist's office to finally free you from the tyranny of the past.

Good wishes and healing to you.