I've never heard of that modality. I will have to look it up. My wife only knows the past, nothing of the current stuff. Part of me wants to tell her, but a larger part of me just wants to protect her.
The therapist today didn't push the topic. I kinda wish she had, because I really need ot talk about it in a safe place, but I didn't get the courage until we were out of time. I was about to say something when she did a time check... Oh well, there's tomorrow with my individual therapist, or next week again with her...
I'm really all over the place. I would call my T today, but he is only there 3 days a week... I hate this system. I really miss my old state. I know I would not have tackled a lot of this stuff had we not moved here, but sometimes I think the negatives out-weigh the positives...

Can I ask why you don't want your husband to know? Would he not be supportive? Or is there something else? I know with me, it's a combination of shame and protective instincts (both for her state of mind, and my own coping skills)... I don't know If I would be able to tell any of this to a husband if I were with one... But I think he would have figured out after the millions of hospitalizations. SI is hard to hide with us. I dunno... sorry...

I'm so all over the place right now. Feeling very impulsive and trying to keep it in check... it's a little easier to keep from self-harm when everyone is home, but I really wish they were not. i just need to make it through till tomorrow when I see my T. Hopefully he will have something helpful, or at least something that allows me to make it through the weekend.
just keep breathing...