I realize that there is possible help for the depression from this thought even despite my belief. However, even though the depression from this thought may be somewhat eased through treatment and such, my belief that the depression from this thought is going to last all day everyday for years (or even perhaps the rest of my life) might really make the depression from this thought last that long. Which is obviously the reason why I came here in hopes that somehow somebody could scientifically prove to me that's not true. Just from knowing that it's not true, that would not only ease the depression from this thought, but would also make the depression from this thought last only for like a few months as opposed to years or even my entire life just from knowing that it won't last that long and that I'm getting better.

But this has been going on for quite some time and don't feel any better. And since nobody can scientifically prove to me that my belief in the depression from this thought lasting for years or even my entire life is a false belief, I feel that the depression from this thought just might last this long and hardly get any better.