Dear T,

I don't know if you understood tonight. I think I had a hard time telling you what is going on because I'm suppressing it all within myself....I wanted to tell you that you mean a lot to me and im really scared that you are going to leave. I wanted to say that without you, I'm not sure I'd be doing as well as I am. I wanted to say that you are really helping me and I appreciate you. But I didn't say any of that. I'm sorry