It happened more often prior to going on anything. (Including my blood pressure meds.) It's toned down significantly probably because I don't feel I've gotten depressed as much. And I haven't experienced anything dramatically negative in a week or so. With going to meet the pdoc and T next week I was just trying to work out what I would and wouldn't tell them about. And part of me kind of felt bad for not mentioning it to begin with.

When I'm in that place where I do hear the voices telling me I'm worthless I don't want to tell anyone about it. It's almost an embarrassment. I wouldn't tell anyone if I were suicidal (which is usually when the voices are at their worst) until after the fact. Can't explain it. I tried to tell my parents (my dad specifically) when I was younger and he flat out told me my depression was just me being lazy and I needed to stop being a spoiled ***** and stop crying. So I feel like I'm being selfish. I feel like an embarrassment. And I have no shortage of voices telling me so.

Really though, it's true that they don't bother me the majority of the time. And my pdoc is WAY not a med pusher. Which is one of the only reasons I'm sticking it out with him. He seems to have my general health in mind which I really appreciate.