you are very uncomfortable with this lady.which means you were not able to tell her everything you wanted and everything she needed to know. Please find someone that is willing to listen remember does the doctors work for you not the other way around. if you are going through a mental health center ask for a transfer. If you do not want to use medicine then I would suggest a therapist and you can speak to them about the pros and cons of you choosing to take medicine or not. I have been a most mood stabilizer and this one is the first one that has worked for me. I have only been able to be med compliance because I have a doctors that works with me. I make my choices about the medication that I take and talk to my therapist about when I want to get off the medication, the whys, and if I should have any changes to it.

You may try to take some melatonin so that you may be able to get some sleep.also keep a journal just in case the medication makes you feel strange. I would really talk to someone or us about you fears of medication. It is not supposed to zombify you to work properly.if you do choose not to take the medicine please do not flush it bring it back to the pharmacist so they can dispose of it properly. I would seriously think about getting a therapist because there is a ble to spend more time and I usually easier to get a hold of when they are needed. The many different things you can do to help weather you choose to take medication or not. We each have our own personal reasonsto take or not take medication. We cannot tell you which is a better option for you but we can listen and tell you I are reasons that we choose the option that we have chosen.