I will admit that I need meds, and I take them. Meanwhile, I feel like I am doing just fine until I talk to my t and my pdoc. Evidently I am a very anxious person because I have occasional panic attacks, but I have learned to mentally talk myself out of them. Also, I am depressed because I love sleep. I nap all of the time. I don't feel depressed when I nap, but my t tells me it is a symptom of worsening depression. I am avoiding life.
All of this is probably true, but I feel like I am pulling it together pretty well. I asked for verbal report from my t today so that I can share with my pdoc next week because she expects t input. The t asked if I wanted to sign a release so that she could call the pdoc with the info. All of this makes me think I am missing something and I might actually have problems that I don't know about!
Unless I tell friends, no one can identify that I am having all of these problems, so I am wondering if I need to drop all of it! Maybe I need to live with my normal.
My t also told me that I am a deep thinker and sometimes I over analyze situations in my life. Yes, my mind is constantly working, but I am drugged for this, so I don't know what else to do. I don't want to add to my drugs, if anything I would like to figure out ways to decrease these.

My thoughts are that if I am still diagnosed with problems having all of this treatment, maybe I should come up with a different plan. Btw, I have great insurance and maybe this helps with the dx!

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