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Originally Posted by Clara22
Hi GenCat,
Thanks for this post.
Sorry for this question (in case it is painful) but can you identify the ideas that come to your mind when you are around people and feel unhappy? What comes to your mind in that moment? To me, many times the worse thoughts come to me before I meet them, and that refrains me from going out. Thoughts have to be that I don't like the way I look. Sometimes, I have resentful thoughts abut their appearance, although the first thing that comes to my mind is that they are superficial and fake (the resentfulness is underneath, it took me a while to discover that - and it is not nice to discover that I can be resentful). Anyway, normally once I am out, I do not have a lot of thoughts although sometimes I do not feel happy to be there.
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I can just watch my friends, or others and think about how wonderful their life will be because they are in charge and are actually doing things with their life, unlike me. I feel like I'm not really there, in person, watching them. I think, wow, they are so happy, or wow, she really has her life working out for her. Has multiple jobs, going to college and getter good grades, has a boyfriend and plans on getting married in the next 5 years.
Both of my friends are VERY outgoing, and they are successful, unlike me. I still find it humorous how I'm friends with them.