I said "the voice in my head is telling me..." once, and didn't mean it as in hallucinations of any kind, but as an image of the compelling voice, my own voice, that I get in my head, like when you have a loud internal dialogue with yourself. It's an involuntary internal dialogue where the "involuntary part" of me is trying to compel me to commit suicide, but the voluntarily thinking part of me (I) can see the flawed reasoning and is (am) trying to stop the dialogue/monologue. It is very tiresome and it is hard to not feel very suicidal when this happens. It does feel like someone else, or some other me, is trying to influence me. It's a sort of non-stop listing of reasons to kill myself and to hate myself in a deep, monotonous voice that is my own.

Hope this clarifies what I meant if you were thinking about my post.