I am a partner of a survivor and am not quite sure that I am not a survivor myself. I have been reading a lot about sexual abuse and the effects later in life. I have no memory of being abused as a child, but have always thought in the back of my mind that it was a possibility. I have several of the signs of sexual abuse.

I was reading through the forums yesterday, and stumbled upon something that jogged a memory. I guess I never really thought about it being "abuse" before. About 6 yrs ago (i am now 26), I was at a party w/ my friends. I was really drunk and went to lay down. This guy came in and we kissed for a while, and then I passed out. When I woke up the next morning, my pants were unbuttoned and my bra undone. I didn't remember any of this happening, but didn't think much of it. Later, I found out that he continued to fondle and finger me while I was passed out. I never said anything to him about it and actually ended up dating him for a few weeks after that!

What I was wondering was that if that is considered "sexual assualt/abuse". If so, I have other similiar incidents that have happened and am wondering why I've never thought of it as abuse before. (And why I would repeatedly allow myself to be put in these situations.)

Any thoughts would be helpful. Thanks for reading.

Jenny