People judge what they cannot understand. Unfortunately that means there's a whole lot of judging going on because we can only truly understand what we have actually lived. I'm so sorry you feel so down. Keep trying and keep on with the progress you have made. I'm struggling too as I keep working so hard, but keep having major mood issues. It sucks big time when you are putting in so much effort but still get knocked down. But we have to hope that if we keep trying it WILL get better. Focus on how far you have come, not how far you have to go, I guess.

I have no advice on friends. I'm pretty dang lonely myself. Virtual non-judgmental hugs!!!