Hi Nick, I just wanted to add, I felt scared and confused when I was first Dx. I had been seeing the same Pdoc for almost 10 years due to severe anxiety, depression and cptsd. He retired on Jan 1 and gave me two pages (copied) from my chart: BPD. I was stunned (what a label).
I did a great deal of research and also came here and shared my feelings about it (rcvd really good support).
I am seeing a new Pdoc now, as well as a new T and I go to a group. I expressed the sadness, fear and shock I felt re: the BPD dx.
My medical /support team all told me separately that it is manageable, treatable and "symptoms" get better with age (we are around the same age so I wanted to be sure to mention that, as well = hope).
I am working on DBT which is very helpful. It is teaching me a new way to think about things, process feelings / thoughts and to communicate. Also to think about things in a different way ( I have lost several people that I loved very much, as well).
I just wanted to reach out and say you a re not alone, we can relate and to keep writing. You are in a good, supportive place. Rose
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Originally Posted by NICK 0305
Time for a moan ! As you know I have BPD and my partner left me 6 weeks prior to me getting diagnosed and she said she cant take anyone which in a way i understand. We were together 6 years and I love and miss her so much but she feels i wont change. I was out driving an hour agao and as ive previously said its hard as she works for me, anyway i thought i would buy her some flowers, i went to a special florist and bought the most beautiful bouquet of flowers. On returning to my work I went to her and said these are because i love you and always have and always will, her reply was to not even look at me but say thanks. I then said it looks like you dont even want them and she said no i dont ! What a heartless *****, I know i havea problem and she cant even see the nice in me which is tearing me apart.
Sorry for my rant but it really hurts .
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